stumbling over words. by leftbehindwishes, literature
Literature
stumbling over words.
i've tried my hand at this
so many times.
i've used metaphors
and shaky rhymes to show
how i feel,
but each ended as the last:
a frustrated author,
a crumpled paper in the wastebin.
it's hard for me
to say what i mean.
every step i take, i fall back two,
too scared to move at all
for the fear of losing you.
but i will try.
there's nothing quite like
your kisses, or holding your hand at night.
i'm never as happy
as when your smile's aimed at me.
i want to keep
it in my heart, save it for just
us to see.
i'm selfish like that.
but late at night when
the crickets call, my
every breath is filled with you.
my arms are em
i dreamt once
of us walking hand in hand.
i was younger, you were
unbelievably tall.
the beach around us changed
with every step, but i
kept my eyes trained on you.
you were my rock; you were my constant.
suddenly you dropped my hand.
you stepped away
and dove into the surf,
calling "follow me" into
the wind.
"mommy," i yelled repeatedly,
"i can't swim."
my voice grew hoarse, but you never looked back.
i sat and wept,
gripping the sand in my fists.
my heart felt torn, as if
a hole had been left in
your place.
you swam farther out
as the tide rose,
stealing away our footprints in the sand.
the seagulls cried out to you
night's fallen.
time passes, the clock blurs,
my comforter fades.
we're dancing slowly,
and i smile as she sways.
little kisses fall upon me;
i see their intention but not their source.
i glance around and see her lips,
then wait for my butterflies to run their course.
hand to hand, chest to chest,
heart to heart.
they beat, time skips,
and i awake with a start.
i reach over, half-asleep,
expecting to feel her skin.
i turn back, left unsatisfied,
betrayed by my dreams again.
i am the breaker of promises,
i am the end to all satisfaction.
i bring about the destruction of hearts and
yes, i feel bad, but i can't quite help what i do.
i see your face, so young and impressionable,
i can see straight through your skin.
you think you're well hidden,
and that makes it all the harder
for me to watch you break.
you pride yourself upon having a good eye,
but do you really see him?
he's built you up so high,
all that's left is to fall.
where will he be when your foundation cracks?
--
i am not molded from good intentions, or the truth.
behind my chesire smile
are secrets you'll never know.
It was the first day.
She was hidden deep inside, somewhere underneath the short hair, the loose clothes, and heavy boots. She hated feeling this manly, but what could she do? Grow her hair out, curl and spray it, put on makeup? No. If anyone truly saw her, she'd have hell to pay. She'd gotten used to hiding by now, anyway.
"Jordan Nelson?"
Her head perked at the name she had become accustomed to answering to. Ugh. Why couldn't she have been named something typical, like Ashley, or Samantha? She would have even taken Lucy, for Christ's sake.
I wonder what Mr. Ricknell would think if I said, 'Actually, I prefer Samantha'?, she though
i came across a site
that listed the different meanings
for ambiguous words.
cut had dozens.
dozens of definitions,
dozens of synonyms.
i have dozens of cuts.
but they only mean
one thing:
redemption.
Days like this I feel
Lonely, useless,
Stupid, ugly,
Everything I don't want to be.
I am not good enough.
My poems aren't good enough.
My head hurts,
I think I should
Drill a hole
Through my head, skin and skull,
To relieve the pressure
And relieve me of my sadness.
I want to hide away
Beneath my covers;
Sleep forever,
Not suppress my tears.
I wonder if anyone
In this class
Feels as I do, insecure,
and is better at hiding it.
I don't want attention
Not at my weakest
When it could be
remembered.
I do want attention
Now, at my weakest
When I appreciate love
most.
I feel like everyone in class
Is focused on me
Seei
honesty or self-loathing. by leftbehindwishes, literature
Literature
honesty or self-loathing.
you're the wrong girl for anyone.
you like math
and honest photographs
and poems that make your
heart hurt.
you're good at predicting people,
or maybe people are just predictable.
you have low expectations
so you won't get hurt.
you play a part, ever-changing,
planning your actions to appear a certain way.
you hide your true self
so people will continue to like you.
you're obsessive and fickle,
switching hobbies and habits and loves every few months.
katy rose, blink 182, maroon 5, john mayer.
poetry, photography, prose.
do you remember the first song you wrote?
"dabba-dabba da doo, i love you, whoa-oh."
do you remember the
a clear sky, open and blue,
broken only by cotton clouds and
a brilliant sun.
it calls out to me,
screaming, "see me, love me,
hold me. just try;
i'm already yours."
-
a tiny bird, chipper and shining,
singing beautiful songs into the
beautiful day.
she seems happy,
but i hear the sadness in her melody:
"pay attention to me. i'm here,
i promise, just look closer."
-
a blade of grass, green and soft,
cradling my body and not caring
how crushed it becomes.
it whispers,
"please stay,
i don't mind being short of breath.
just as long as you're happy."
-
i am the sky, the bird, the grass.
and you will never get close enough
there were lots of things
that could have crossed my mind
when you told me
you were over me and
moving on to her.
i could have cried or
hated you or gotten mad,
locked myself in my room
and played sad songs
and had a pity party all
to myself.
that's what i normally do
when you say things like this
and hurt me for hurting you.
but this time all i could focus on
was that fucking stray string
on your white T-shirt
because i knew that this time
you were telling the truth.
stumbling over words. by leftbehindwishes, literature
Literature
stumbling over words.
i've tried my hand at this
so many times.
i've used metaphors
and shaky rhymes to show
how i feel,
but each ended as the last:
a frustrated author,
a crumpled paper in the wastebin.
it's hard for me
to say what i mean.
every step i take, i fall back two,
too scared to move at all
for the fear of losing you.
but i will try.
there's nothing quite like
your kisses, or holding your hand at night.
i'm never as happy
as when your smile's aimed at me.
i want to keep
it in my heart, save it for just
us to see.
i'm selfish like that.
but late at night when
the crickets call, my
every breath is filled with you.
my arms are em
i dreamt once
of us walking hand in hand.
i was younger, you were
unbelievably tall.
the beach around us changed
with every step, but i
kept my eyes trained on you.
you were my rock; you were my constant.
suddenly you dropped my hand.
you stepped away
and dove into the surf,
calling "follow me" into
the wind.
"mommy," i yelled repeatedly,
"i can't swim."
my voice grew hoarse, but you never looked back.
i sat and wept,
gripping the sand in my fists.
my heart felt torn, as if
a hole had been left in
your place.
you swam farther out
as the tide rose,
stealing away our footprints in the sand.
the seagulls cried out to you
night's fallen.
time passes, the clock blurs,
my comforter fades.
we're dancing slowly,
and i smile as she sways.
little kisses fall upon me;
i see their intention but not their source.
i glance around and see her lips,
then wait for my butterflies to run their course.
hand to hand, chest to chest,
heart to heart.
they beat, time skips,
and i awake with a start.
i reach over, half-asleep,
expecting to feel her skin.
i turn back, left unsatisfied,
betrayed by my dreams again.
i am the breaker of promises,
i am the end to all satisfaction.
i bring about the destruction of hearts and
yes, i feel bad, but i can't quite help what i do.
i see your face, so young and impressionable,
i can see straight through your skin.
you think you're well hidden,
and that makes it all the harder
for me to watch you break.
you pride yourself upon having a good eye,
but do you really see him?
he's built you up so high,
all that's left is to fall.
where will he be when your foundation cracks?
--
i am not molded from good intentions, or the truth.
behind my chesire smile
are secrets you'll never know.
It was the first day.
She was hidden deep inside, somewhere underneath the short hair, the loose clothes, and heavy boots. She hated feeling this manly, but what could she do? Grow her hair out, curl and spray it, put on makeup? No. If anyone truly saw her, she'd have hell to pay. She'd gotten used to hiding by now, anyway.
"Jordan Nelson?"
Her head perked at the name she had become accustomed to answering to. Ugh. Why couldn't she have been named something typical, like Ashley, or Samantha? She would have even taken Lucy, for Christ's sake.
I wonder what Mr. Ricknell would think if I said, 'Actually, I prefer Samantha'?, she though
i came across a site
that listed the different meanings
for ambiguous words.
cut had dozens.
dozens of definitions,
dozens of synonyms.
i have dozens of cuts.
but they only mean
one thing:
redemption.
Days like this I feel
Lonely, useless,
Stupid, ugly,
Everything I don't want to be.
I am not good enough.
My poems aren't good enough.
My head hurts,
I think I should
Drill a hole
Through my head, skin and skull,
To relieve the pressure
And relieve me of my sadness.
I want to hide away
Beneath my covers;
Sleep forever,
Not suppress my tears.
I wonder if anyone
In this class
Feels as I do, insecure,
and is better at hiding it.
I don't want attention
Not at my weakest
When it could be
remembered.
I do want attention
Now, at my weakest
When I appreciate love
most.
I feel like everyone in class
Is focused on me
Seei
honesty or self-loathing. by leftbehindwishes, literature
Literature
honesty or self-loathing.
you're the wrong girl for anyone.
you like math
and honest photographs
and poems that make your
heart hurt.
you're good at predicting people,
or maybe people are just predictable.
you have low expectations
so you won't get hurt.
you play a part, ever-changing,
planning your actions to appear a certain way.
you hide your true self
so people will continue to like you.
you're obsessive and fickle,
switching hobbies and habits and loves every few months.
katy rose, blink 182, maroon 5, john mayer.
poetry, photography, prose.
do you remember the first song you wrote?
"dabba-dabba da doo, i love you, whoa-oh."
do you remember the
a clear sky, open and blue,
broken only by cotton clouds and
a brilliant sun.
it calls out to me,
screaming, "see me, love me,
hold me. just try;
i'm already yours."
-
a tiny bird, chipper and shining,
singing beautiful songs into the
beautiful day.
she seems happy,
but i hear the sadness in her melody:
"pay attention to me. i'm here,
i promise, just look closer."
-
a blade of grass, green and soft,
cradling my body and not caring
how crushed it becomes.
it whispers,
"please stay,
i don't mind being short of breath.
just as long as you're happy."
-
i am the sky, the bird, the grass.
and you will never get close enough
there were lots of things
that could have crossed my mind
when you told me
you were over me and
moving on to her.
i could have cried or
hated you or gotten mad,
locked myself in my room
and played sad songs
and had a pity party all
to myself.
that's what i normally do
when you say things like this
and hurt me for hurting you.
but this time all i could focus on
was that fucking stray string
on your white T-shirt
because i knew that this time
you were telling the truth.
I watch you sleep
And wish I was by your side
I miss your body
Against mine at night
I miss your kiss
When I first wake
I want to wrap may arms around you
And cup you in my hand
I want to lie beside you
And fall asleep to your heartbeat
I watch you sleep
And I miss you
autumn always falls. by xo-smq-was-here, literature
Literature
autumn always falls.
I've had you in all seasons but autumn.
Spring, summer, winter; but not fall.
Those days in spring with the tree blossoms in the rain,
And the summer nights of whispering confessions.
Who could forget the wintery scene of snowballs and second chances?
But nothing in autumn.
Because autumn means leaving something great,
And it's time to return from where we left off.
I guess this is goodbye, for good.
A scent of your rosemary
barely quenches my wanton thirst
As you escape stretched palms
Flowing in a dance unrehearsed.
Like an angel skirting
Across a dying man's glazed eyes
You slip from my fingers
And abandon me to the flies.
Cheated by raging storms
You leave this sailor fainthearted
As you lightly fly away
Everlost to skies uncharted.
it rained one year ago today. by stuff7, literature
Literature
it rained one year ago today.
so i thought i
was invisible; and i
could hide from you and
your glances that cripple
and
break me.
-
so i thought you were
deaf; and you couldn't
hear me and i didn't
have to hide my words
along
with my actions.
-
so i thought i was
gone; and you weren't a part
of me anymore, but you found
ways
to stay inside of me when
i was
inside out.
-
it is cold outside and i'm
sitting on your porch
waiting for you to
come home
again; i remember one
year ago today, when we stood together
in the streets; in traffic.
we felt free.
we felt safe.
"Wanna play a game?"
"Sure."
"Alright. It's called the question game."
"Okay.. You go first."
"So.. Do you want to kiss me?"
[with everything that i have in me, yes.]
My first "I love you" was an accident.
No, not that I had said it to the wrong person.
I blurted it out without meaning to.
But you looked at me and touched my cheek, and said,
"I love you more."
[you swore you meant it.]
Rain.
Just the word makes my heart pitter-patter,
and all I can think of is that
June night
Where the sky released its sorrows onto our little town.
You reached for my hand,
Put your hat on my head,
And kissed me as the sky's tears enve
i know you're
always ignored; i know
you feel forsaken; i know
where you've been and
i
know where you'll
be and where you're
going.
i've been there.
-
and i know conor oberst knows
how to steal
the words out of your
mouth/heart and put them in
a song; and i know i lack
that ability; but you
still think my voice is pretty.
i still think you're pretty.
-
there's dynamite walking up
the road; trying to find your
house; but we're hiding; making
love on the floor because
the closet's
taken by our parents.
all twelve of them.
-
i know you'd rather be
alone; underground; with dry
eyes and empty ears; but
cities are